livid
I am shaking.
I feel sick.
I am angry.
My fertility clinic has royally fucked me over. I’ve been waiting for a phone call from them since May 30. I was biding my time, trying not to overreact but when they still hadn’t called as of last week I started to make my own phone calls.
After repeated and increasingly frustrated messages, I finally got a call back this morning. Don’t ya know they can’t book me in until July 10th and that’s the soonest they have so I’d better deal with it. Well July 10th puts me into my next cycle which means that because of their fuck up I have to wait another month for my IUI.
The only reason that I even got a call back at this point was because I was making a general nuisance of myself and my RE’s admin personally went to them to find out why I hadn’t been contacted. If not for her, I’d still be waiting.
I am so upset that I don’t know what do to with myself. Do I make a big stink about it when these people hold my future in their hands? Do I bite my tongue and deal with it?
I don’t know what to fucking do but I cannot concentrate on anything else. Don’t they know they are fucking with my LIFE????? How can people who are trained to deal with infertility possibly be so callous? A single month to an IFer is an eternity and signifies another month lost and another month older.
I called my admin and left her a message. There’s nothing she can do about it but I just felt the need to tell someone how I felt. I also emailed the clinic manager to outline my “concerns” and issues with the events of the past month. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it while I’m so upset but I just don’t know what else to do with myself.
I can barely keep myself together today and I have to try. My coworkers know something’s going on and I hate to contribute to their nosiness. It’s only a matter of time (minutes maybe) before they start asking questions.
How am I going to get through the rest of the day?
I feel sick.
I am angry.
My fertility clinic has royally fucked me over. I’ve been waiting for a phone call from them since May 30. I was biding my time, trying not to overreact but when they still hadn’t called as of last week I started to make my own phone calls.
After repeated and increasingly frustrated messages, I finally got a call back this morning. Don’t ya know they can’t book me in until July 10th and that’s the soonest they have so I’d better deal with it. Well July 10th puts me into my next cycle which means that because of their fuck up I have to wait another month for my IUI.
The only reason that I even got a call back at this point was because I was making a general nuisance of myself and my RE’s admin personally went to them to find out why I hadn’t been contacted. If not for her, I’d still be waiting.
I am so upset that I don’t know what do to with myself. Do I make a big stink about it when these people hold my future in their hands? Do I bite my tongue and deal with it?
I don’t know what to fucking do but I cannot concentrate on anything else. Don’t they know they are fucking with my LIFE????? How can people who are trained to deal with infertility possibly be so callous? A single month to an IFer is an eternity and signifies another month lost and another month older.
I called my admin and left her a message. There’s nothing she can do about it but I just felt the need to tell someone how I felt. I also emailed the clinic manager to outline my “concerns” and issues with the events of the past month. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it while I’m so upset but I just don’t know what else to do with myself.
I can barely keep myself together today and I have to try. My coworkers know something’s going on and I hate to contribute to their nosiness. It’s only a matter of time (minutes maybe) before they start asking questions.
How am I going to get through the rest of the day?
sky girl rambled @ 6/28/2006
16 Comments:
One deep breathe at a time, sweetheart. Go outside and take a minute or two. Remember dearheart, control is all an illusion.
I love you.
Oh fly
what a blow!, it really is unbelievable that they acted like that. Its so fucking important too, but do like halo says, breath...slow
xx
I can't imagine what you're going through.
I can feel how upset you are, though. Just know I'm here thinking about you and always here to listen.
Oh Fly... You know, I don't think they do get it.. think of how many of us they get coming through every day - they couldn't possibly grasp the gravity of the work they do. Not that that makes it ok.
That is just so royally crap.. it really is such a long time to be set back.
I am so glad you took the initiative with it.. you can't be polite with this type of shit. And every month is just longer sitting there psyching yourself and building it up.. I actually regret not getting my arse into gear sooner.. we probably could have started last month had I really pushed the point.
Anyway - I am full of assvice and it sucks so I'll just shut up now. Just know that I am sympathising and thinking of you. xxx
one breath at a time honey.
i'm so sorry that someone else's failure to do their job has put you in this position. i can only imagine your frustration.
:(
As others have said...breathe. This absolutely sucks and you have every right to voice your concerns...so do it. Or, find another clinic that is more sensitive and responsive.
oh that sucks. I'm so sorry. I've also had to deal w/ insensitive and incompetent staff at my RE's office. I'm so glad you took a stand. I hope you get a response that includes a sincere apology.
- from another cyclesista
Again, like so many others have said, just a breath at a time.
Go for a walk, have a cry if you need to. You'll get through it.
Needing to be strong really sucks sometimes.
We're all here for you.
I think you should go outside and scream as loud as you can............jump around like a maniac.........stomp your feet and curse....
Oh Fly - i'm so sorry hun. All I can say/do, is to echo what the others have said. Just Breathe. Go outside if you need to - I've had to do that once today myself, and it really does help.
You're in my thoughts sweetie.
Is there anyone around you can punch or bite? Ok maybe that may not be good for your career!
I am so sorry you are having to deal with that crap! I hope it all goes smoothly from now on. I would definately make sure your concerns have heard... from my experience with everything in life the squeaky wheel seems to get the grease!
Take care and I am thinking of you!
I hate it when an RE's office, OF ALL PLACES! can't figure out how to treat us right!! I would make sure they know you're upset, and if you feel like they don't care...maybe look around if there are other clinics around?
And P.S....your dad DOES rock!
Man that really blows! I totally feel for you. It's complete crap when the doctors office can't get their act togehter and the one that has to pay is you. And it sucks that this is happening at work, where you have to have the semblance of keeping it all together. You must totally be boiling over... (though it's a number of hours late, and I hope the suggestions of breathe in and breathe out helped you to acheive some kind of calm in hte moment.)
You are so right, every day, every minute counts. I certainly identify with that.
So frusterating. I will never understand why medical clinics have to be so difficult to deal with...
It is a sad truth that this clinic like others, are staffed with people, and people can be unpredictable, rude and callous. To be honest for some of them, it is a job, no better than a clerk in any office, and they care about as much.
Be ready to continue to fight for what is right for you (because surely nobody else there is), but try not to lose your composure, as that does not benefit you.
i left my first re because of shite like that. and my second one? not a whole lot better. the conclusion i've come to is that it is a business, and the seller is in charge. it blows, and it stinks, and i'm sorry it is happening to you.
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